"Unless the Lord builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.
It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for he gives to his beloved sleep.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children of one's youth.
Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame when
he speaks with his enemies in the gate."
Psalm 127
I have been working hard this week to remind myself that "the fruit of the womb [is] a reward" This past week has been a bit overwhelming for me on many fronts. We received word on Tuesday that there was a chance that our birth mom would be induced on December 28th. This threw me for a big loop. You would think that working with pregnant women all the time I would have it in my mind that a "due date" is more of a "due range" and truly our little man could come at anytime he decided to come but being faced with the reality that there would be a doctor choosing to deliver our son in just a week was a bit hard for me to swallow. Oh and by the way, there is Christmas in there, a 5 hour trip to Wisconsin to see family for the holiday, your husband is in the midst of finals, you have an 11 month old who wants to hang on your leg or be held 24 hours a day and you do have a job that you are still expected to work... This was my reality this week. To say that I was at melt down point was an understatement.
But as I read this Psalm again it also says "HE will give his beloved rest" I am working hard to find my rest in Him. In many ways I am so thankful that this is all happening at this Christmas season. There are so many wonderful Christmas carols to be reminded of the Rest that God gives. There is celebration of a baby and a reminder of the joy and excitement that a baby brings to the world. And there are a lot of Christmas cookies to eat to deal with my stress. ;) I am so thankful that God knows just what he is doing.
With all of that being said our birth mom did go to the doctor yesterday and the induction is scheduled for December 28th. It looks like we will be having two baby boys in 2012. What a blessed family we are. We are thanking God that He is choosing to "fill our quiver" and we are SO incredibly thankful for the ways that He is providing to bring our newest little man home to us.
We are praying and asking for wisdom as to travel plans. We are praying for grace as we meet with our birth mom at the end of the week and Lord willing get to spend some time with her. We are praying for patience with one another as we go though all of this exciting and crazy time together as a family. And most of all we are praying for rest and a chance to "rest beside the weary road and hear the angels sing."
God has been very good to us. We are thankful for His faithfulness through these past months. And we are thankful for his abundant blessings to us in so many ways, wonderful family and friends, a very steady job and soon to be two beautiful boys that bring much joy and laughter to our home.
I know I say this in every post but we truly are SO thankful for each and everyone of our friends who has been encouraging us along this road. We truly feel that we are not in this alone and that brings much strength. We pray that you too will have a time of rest and reflection on how God has blessed each of you this Christmas season.
"O ye beneath life's crushing load, Whose forms are bending low, Who toil along the climbing way with painful steps and slow; Look now, for glad and golden hours come swiftly on the wing; Oh rest beside the weary road and hear the angels sing." It came upon a midnight clear